4.03.2009

somebody hold me and tell me everything is going to be okay.

do you ever have days where you feel like you have utterly failed as a parent?

today fox found a window sill and decided to bite it.

a few tiny bits of paint chipped off into his mouth.

my internal panic meter shot from a stage 3 "elevated" to a stage 5 "meltdown," and i scraped out fox's mouth, wiped his teeth with a cloth, then shoved my finger down his throat to induce vomiting as a last ditch effort to keep him lead-free.

he puked, then cried, then hugged me and wiped his mouth in my hair.

okay, that's fair.

i'm so sorry baby, i feel horrible... about the whole thing.

11 comments:

Kat said...

Sounds like this could have come straight out of Raising Helen. Didn't you teach him to stick to the table legs?

Emma said...

It will all be OK.

1. There are a million paint layers on that window that have been deposited since the time of lead based between Fox and anything potentially harmful.

2. Your post-bite maneuvers were thorough.

Don't worry.

Vause Family said...

I'm sure there will be worse things. You're a great little mama!

Julia said...

I completely understand. I am the mom that never uses hot water to make formula (I heat cold water in the microwave) because hot water sometimes has trace amounts of lead in it from sitting in the pipes. I also only use glass bottles.

http://www.epa.gov/ogwdw/lead/lead1.html

Alyson said...

Oh my gosh! I can't believe you induced vomiting! You crack me up! Poor little guy! You are an amazing mom, I have no doubt about that! Fox is so lucky.

Melanie Williams said...

you poor thing. that's a mother's hell. come up here and I'll watch Fox and you de-meltdown in the corner with some hot cocoa.

that's so awful.

hilary said...

i hope he's ok, you were totally freaking me out on the phone. don't ever do that again! i had no idea what was happening and i felt so helpless because i couldn't do anything. it's horrible that i'm saying this, but i'm glad you made him vomit. i'm sure he's fine. and you are a good mamma, who fox loves very much!

Noelle said...

mmm, alarming! poor fox. poor you. it must have been a sight. and the vomiting... but i like your thoroughness. i'm on board with that. hope you have both recovered!

i wonder if there's some kind of plastic protective cover thing you can put over the window sills. surely there must be something. and if there's not, i should patent my product and make a million dollars. fox would be my mascot, of course, and i would give you a fraction of the proceeds.

Jessica said...

i'm sorry about the traumatic incident. you're a wonderful mom. one time i was putting together a 72 hour kit in my closet. i left to get something and when i came back aspirin was scattered all over the floor and jack had one in his mouth. i totally freaked out and even though i'm a rn i ran to get my sister who was visiting at the time. she was calm and just said "think about it. they taste gross. he would have spit them out." i was totally hysterical for a little bit there though. you're doing a great job!!!!

Starley Family said...

Oh why do our little ones even want to bite it??? Sarah just climbed the kitchen chair to grab her baby doll and caught her fist against the still hot skillet where I was focusing on serving dinner. It makes us feel awful when we know where it's going but can't get there in time. Makes me wonder about how Heavenly Father's nerves are handling it all...

Kathryn said...

Tears welled up in my eyes. Seriously. Poor you. Fox will be just fine. But poor you. Sorry friend. I bet that was hard.

old me.